grades are in.

My first exam as a nursing student (well, baby nursing student. haha) is completed, submitted, and graded. 78.9 was recorded. The grade sheet that went around class on Thursday said 79.3. Interesting? Either way. It's a C+. Better than I did on my first A&P exam 3 years ago by 3 percent. While it's not as good as I would have liked, it's a bit better than I was expecting. 

Unfortunately I can't say the same about my lab exam I took the night before. I was expecting at least a B. I got a 77.8. Arg. I'm sensing a pattern. haha. I know what the tests are like now, I know what my teacher is looking for. This next section exam should be better. Plus it's only 3 chapters, not 6. =/ 

Tomorrow marks the beginning of week 3 for the class. I'm over half-way done...it's surreal. I'm excited! Fall will bring A&P 2 and spring will be the dreaded Microbiology. ooof. I'm not sure how that'll go...

I realized after some things that were mentioned this weekend, I'm more sure that this is the route I'm supposed to be taking. While there's plenty I don't know, and I can't really imagine what the actual program will be like, I'm excited about the class still. I'm happy when I talk about it, I'm willing to commit my time and energy into learning the stuff (well, I'd still rather slack off and relax- it IS summer). But even when I'm at work, I'm more positive and happy; I know that my days are limited. When they ask me about class, I light up and am excited to share...

It's finally starting to feel right. 

hitting the trochlea. just not humerous.

so, i was seeing all the people i graduated with (or at least went to school with) stepping up and starting careers. exciting ones, the big kinds that make you realize life isn't gonna sit back and wait while you decide it's ok to grow up. and the cool thing is, they were documenting (or for my tech savy generation: blogging) that exciting process- from choice, to interview, to testing, to the cudegra: the contract offers.

in light of the career change i decided was necessary a mere 2 months before my last college final, i thought i should jump on the bandwagon. hey, who said at 21 it was still important to be a leader and not a follower? in the short 2 weeks i've been at this 'nursing school' kick, i've realized a LOT of things. it's a completely different game now than it was 3 years ago when i took my first swing at it. i'm a completely different person than i was at that time. heck i'm a completely different person than i was 3 months ago. i've seen those changes, and i'm sad that the thoughts i've thought, the lessons i've learned, the experiences i've experienced have been left to memory.

i'm a child of the technical generation. i'm also a product of the "me" generation, the "instant gratification" generation. and a middle child. (had to throw that in there for good measure.) what i'm getting at is this: i want something tangible, something that will fully express how i endure the next two years of what will ultimately be the most trying time of my life. enter this blog.

i'll be taking you (if there is anyone out there bored enough to actually read this) through what i'm going through. if nothing else, this is an excellent outlet for me to filter through the process.

if anything, i'm excited. i know i want this. that's what was different than last time. i wasn't ready to decide. i was too scared, and i wasn't ready to commit (shocker.) but...i'm 3 years older, wiser, and more mature now. i know what i want in life. and i know how to get it. will it be hard work? yes. will there be endless weeks that try not only my patience and the human ability to stay awake but also my determination? yes. but i know those are temporary, and the results that will come of them are far greater. and THOSE are what i want.

so i'll put one set of metatarsal bones and phalanges in front of the other...and step, keeping my orbital sockets on the horizon.